A figment of my imagination

Is everything I think that I know just a figment of my imagination? I am constantly being retaught in the most unlikely places that things can be and usually are different than they appear.

Much of my life as I know it has changed rapidly in the last 10 years, children marry,
children have children, a parent dies, a parent ages, and children continue to have
children. Life goes on. Where does this put me? In a most wonderful and incredible
place in my life, where I see the beginnings and the endings and it brings wonder moment to moment.

Mother fell while I was on vacation little over a month ago, she is in rehab in a "swing bed". She is away from her environment and in a vulnerable situation, in that she is encouraged to share time with others. That means sitting on a patio watching birds and talking to the other residents. I believe she likes it. I would even dare to say that she is happy.

What am I learning. To be and observe and maybe not to react so quickly. To endear the precious moments as they come, and to embrace them and learn from them like babies,
coming into the world in awe, in wonder. As we come - we will certainly go and in my heart I know it will be awesome and full of wonder.

watermelon woman

Did I mention yet, that after vacation, possibly before, I observed that I look like I swallowed a nice size watermelon. whole. I have two pregnant daughters and I look
sympathetically related in condition. Vacation did not help, but one can't blame everything on circumstances surrounding lack of self control. One has to blame oneself,
and now one has to suffer.

I like going to the meat market when I have gained weight. I like to say to myself, "I need to lose 5 pounds" and then find a 5 pound roast or hamburger meat, pick it up and hold it and get a sense of what I'm up against. Well, I really need to lose 12 pounds. That's the size of a turkey. We cooked two 12 pound turkeys for Thanksgiving one year. So I need to lose a turkey.

Its time to make a plan. If I don't by this time next year I will look at myself and
my daughters will have delivered their babies and I'll still look sympathetically pregnant, and will probably need to lose a 20 pound turkey. So I'm going off now to
evaluate all my options. I like to have a plan so I'm going to have a plan and I'm going to keep up with it here so that I can have myself to account to. One 12 pound turkey AWAY!!!